Aria Giovanni’s Blog

I don’t believe I have ever personally bought and owned a tv, but in the last 2 years I haven’t had one around. When I rented a room from a girlfriend, I asked if she could take the tv out of the room. I put a desk in its place so I can work. There are tv’s in hotel rooms I stay in but I never turn them on. I have no desire to either. I work, read, or go out instead. I am visiting friends right now and in the past few days people have congregated around the tv in the evenings. I tried to sit down and watch it but I get antsy. I don’t enjoy watching most programs and I just think there is so much more I could be getting done at that moment than trying to force myself into relaxing in front of something that makes me nervous. I know it sounds a bit crazy but years ago I could actually watch a show and enjoy it. Now, something has changed that I don’t have the patience for it anymore. I dread the situation where everyone is sitting in front of the tv and you feel obligated to do the same. I usually run off and take up reading in the end. I can only handle trying to watch tv for so long. The worse consequence from this is that I lack the knowledge of pop culture in general. Standing around in a group and I have no clue about any tv shows, very few movies, actors, etc… The conversation is way above my head and the inside jokes from movies I stand blank faced to the group. I have no clue what they are taking about or why it is so funny. I am not sure if there is anything I can do about it since I don’t care to learn how to watch tv again.